I don't think this Prom '10 blog is healthy for me. So whose idea is this? :/

Prom? uh, forget it. Maybe you enjoyed it , but I? I was just satisfied. Not happy, not sad--just neutral. IDK. So that wasn't my day,my night.

That so called "special" guy I could've danced with was from a sophomore class. LAME.

& now he has a girlfrand. Seeing those moves he used to do the same to me--is this jealousy? Think it's bad? Am I a sinner for being jealous? Huh? Like I moved on for quite some time, just like what I did to 5 years.

I know he liked me but I was the most coward girl ever when he told me that. What the heck, so ignorant of me, I was not exposed to such before, not even during my elementary years. He was just like a brother to me but everything changed when he told me that phrase. I was like O_O ^_^ :( :/ blank. I started avoiding him after that night. Those days I put a huge box of a freezing cold ice between us, `twas all my fault. A week after, I realized, why not?. But `twas too late, I can't even speak. Always thinking `bout the people's reactions & what if's & the haters & me being a pedo :(. But he's taller. Too late. On his birthday, I saw him with another girl. K. Enough :/

Like yesterday--I saw him glanced at me during the acoustic jam event. We kind of met each others eyes but `twas quite dark & he was meters away so I was like the great pretender for not even saying hiii from a far. & I saw him with his girl that I don't even like. A juice of a hot chilly pepper was poured into my eyes from my imagination. Don't get me wrong, before I knew they're together , originally I don't like HER, for some reasons--her voice, the way she speaks & her aura is...but she's pretty & talented I cannot deny. :D

There's nothing I can do but to pretend pretend & forget but still reminisce LOL. samoka nako oiii. I can taste my bitterness. Past isn't past.

I have a new crush for three months now & I'm taking this seriously but not too serious that we should pursue a relationship HAHA. Serious that I make sure he helps me enchant on what to do, I don't really want him to know coz I just want it to be that way.

Pasulyap sulyap ka kumari,
patingin tingin kumpari
Di maintindihan
Ang ibig mong sabihin
---reminds me of Sir Plaza's song XD

LOL dw bout mees I can handle it. I got academic damn problems which I need to pay more attention, I need to go out from this city after I'm done with this, THIS & these.

sorry wrong grammar, I know I should work on it :