Just woke up. I dream weird, well I guess everyone does. Almost every time I dream, I'm being topless, seriously. But I still go on and the people who I'm talking to don't hesitate or feel awkward whenever we have a conversation. I always dream of being topless, what the..?? So I searched over google what it meant. I found out I was being guileless, vulnerable, and willing to nurture. Somehow true... Well yea, topless FTW. LOL jk. At least my question is now answered ^_^. Well, I haven't studied yet, so I guess I need to work it all out. And uh, I need to a attend the party later, we will be hosting it. Ma,Pa and Ate didn't go home yesterday, I wonder why *heart beats*. God Bless, I need to cook rice? idk.?, Ma's goin to kill me. LOOL, I so wanna talk to you, but naaahh...........K byes.

Sorry I just typed it via mobile phone :(

Hey I just saw this picture from somewhere, made me sigh. Uh,,, I wish I had a brother for real. I mean, he could've been as fashionable as this guy, uh. He could've been my buddy forever. Idk, makes me feel envious not having a brother or something to others. That's what I do not have. Well, this is just a picture. Well, anyway...I feel so uneasy since the day before Christmas eve. IDK. I have not been studying for my effin exams. I always see this someone online, makes me want to delete and block him/her forever. The feck I can not for some reasons. harhar

Sorry about me, being rude to my posts. I know, right.

I can't write well for three days, what has gotten into me? I need to finish this stupid english ten journal entries, I only wrote two. WOW.

So yeah, remember? Two of my classmates gave my mobile number to a so called admirer stranger. But heaps, he's really getting into my nerves, BORING, I'm not even interested to have a convo. Like hello!!! We're not even that close.

So from the 18th, the convo went well, not after sometime he diverted the convo about me having a boyfriend. That I did not reply and I'm not even interested to open that topic to a weird effin stranger. Made him sound desperate to have one.

Oh so, I stopped replying and I kept on lying that I'm not using the unlit text and there's so signal, blah blah blah.

9 am yesterday he texted Suplada..

And I was like jkcdasjfgsdjhsdjasbdjfbdjsfbaskjaskfkggdkjgask what the hell is this guy talking about???? what has gotten into him? HAHAHAHA

He even asked for me to add him on facebook because he is already banned for four straight days (if I so know, he had been adding strangers he likes wuahahhahahaha)

And he started chatting me actually, then I went off and logged in to my other account and then on to the other then, so I went on and off, the hell I was so bastos (i know right)

So he messaged me Oi, cge lage kag kawala?
asa ka? asa naman ka?

So I was liiiiiiiiiiiiiike, STFUUUUUUU sdfkjsksjksfdjksdf who are you to ask me those and demand me to talk to you????

WOW I was so being rude rude rude again,

Yea he then texted me Ganhan raba unta ko nimo ka abeh nako ug buotan ka...

Well dude, maling akala ka naman so much kase eh. Don't assume so much. What convo do you want? Mm, you want me to text you 24/7 HOY!!!! I can't even text to my crush every time I try to text them. You just don't know me. I'm only up to having crushes, not into relationships. And FYI, I'm so loyal to my crush though my crush have no effin clue of what I really feel inside. So, be a kpop fan dude, you'll feel much better if you do. Stop chasin when you can't even try to catch/reach on who you're chasin.

LOOK what you've done!!! you made me remember of my 5-year crush in high school :| He had been my ultimate crush, I just did not tell and I was pretending to like others though all those times...All I like was him :| (emo mode*)

So yesterday we went to the province. Mm, since I was not online, the only way to burst my overflowing thoughts was by sending group messages to random people so I would feel a bit more relieved. I have been bombing their inbox, and now I feel they're being annoyed by me. Maybe they were thinking... think why the hell was she sending me stuffs in english, feelers or maybe can't she just stfu pa english english pa. Okay sorry, my fault all my big effin fault.

Hah, I just felt like sending messages yesterday because, I like seeing my phone display the progress of sending the messages and my eyes are sort of being played by this somewhat like screen saver. But nah, I have been really annoying since yesterday. They must have been thinking that I was only thinking of myslef all those/these times.

Yes, during holidays, I always think of myself myself all for myself. Not to mention being vain and rude. ^^

Why is it so hard for me to tell what's killing me to my family.

These days, I have been so maarte already to myslef. Oh, yes I admit it. I mean, c'mon it's a part of growing up. Asking if I put some gloss or eye shadows or whatever make up I try on really gets my nerves on. Can't you just stfu. Just accept the fact that I'm changing.

Let’s face it. We’ve changed. We’ve all changed. Somewhere between school ending and school starting. We’ve all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken and friendships were fucked over. New loves started and new people came into our lives. We no longer hang out with our circle of friends that we thought was going to be there for us “forever”. We no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We’ve all changed. Some for the better and some for the worse

I'm not changing for worse anyway, I'm for the better. and stfu.

Holidays seem to be like a time for me to reflect and reflect and reflect about myself, myself, my deeds and back to myself. This time, I am often selfish. Because I'm actually sick and tired about school, yes, the ESET people know me already. The officers always call for a meeting, a meeting and another meeting. Hmmm, I'm just a newbie being a block representative and like I'm carrying the role of a legit ESET officer.The heck, they know my father, then my sister's mates know me as well because I look like a miniature of her. What the feather duster!

I'm just so scared to do some stupid things. I am not that free like the other teenagers do. But yeah. It's for my own good for my parents to be freakin strict. They become so annoying, my day won't be complete without them shouting at me.

When you say something like moving on, I know you can't help but look back. Well, perhaps it's a part of moving on. Things just get draggy for sometime. But as the days roll on, you can't really move on : P

Well, I'm actually describing the indecisive self.

My background audio is killing my ears. Sareeh, idk how to do some magic to my voice. Oh wells, just mute if you don't like it, this is my page, you can't just command me not to put it : P

Anyway, after my intro of my audio is the whole song of which I am singing in an unmelodious retarded way. Some verses of the song seemed so tight, perhaps.

That mini heart attack you get when you skip a stair.

So I have been multitasking all day long. From texting to facebooking, and uuh doing some boring old chores. Hah, nah really doing chores, a donut butt like me won't do some unless Ma/Pa will start screaming for the fifth time.

I have become so insensitive when they start to ask some favor from me. I mean, can't they just even do it for themselves??!! Why let someone do it for them? Hello!! They're the ones supposed to be doing all these, stop passing it on me , like my name is the overused name in the four walls of the house. They're quite old, they need to stretch their muscles and exercise their body by not letting me do what they want (speaking of doing the chores).

Don't get me wrong, I'm not writing for the sake of just writing. Gaaah, I kinda need to improve my writing skills , I suck at these/this. LOL I'm not even sure which term to use. Blah Blah*

What's the use? It's a new year and you're just going to promise the same thing you promised yourself last year. When are you actually going to make a change?

Fashion has to reflect who you are, what you feel at the moment and where you're going. It doesn't have to be bright, doesn't have to be loud. Just have to be you

I just don't get it why those two girls yesterday, can't help but back bight us in front of them. I don't really care, so that probably meant , we stand out from all the rest. Whatever you two, idgf.

The more you get to know a person, the more attractive they become to you. Because everything beautiful you see on the inside of them, suddenly you're able to see on the outside of them too.

YES I AM RUDE

I just can't stop setting my own standards. I mean, hello. No one can stop me anyway. There's nothing bad being idealistic.

My heart is being so cold these days, it only heats up and beats for only one person uncontrollably and unknowingly.

So as I was saying we did a production number earlier. Yes, I lied to my parents. I went to camague. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand. I got two new texts from two different strangers from our school. Well, iz okay. Kind of used to it. But, I really hate it when people then ask me if I got a boyfriend or someone right away though we only got 3 replies to each other yet. I mean c'mon are you texting me for asking me if I have one? Ohgeeez, It turns me off right away.

Unless I saw you, unless I know you, unless I know your background.

Yes I do talk to strangers. Azn strangers with class and humor.

So we did dance in the middle of the party. A production dance number we did. We made the dance jolly and added some comedy to it. The crowd just can't stop being entertained by us, especially when my gay mate started to dance differently with his/her unique gay moves. Everyone got a kick out of our presentation.

I did enjoyed dancing and cwalking. I was so proud of my mate, he cwalked as well. *sigh* I wish I deleted some files from the video camera. While we were dancing, it ran out of space, insufficient.

But oh wells, I'm just so filled with somewhat true happiness tonight. A lot of situations I did encounter.
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I could say I wasn't performing good being a block representative just for this event. I'm tired, sick of working things out.

I bring back all my honor to Lord Jesus, God , my savior and Father for this capability I am having.

thanks everyone
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So I met my internet friend today. The situation before we met was kinda funny, but yea, leave it to both of us. I know, right?

Well anyway, he was so quiet though. I was supposed to make a convo but my best bud was in between of us LOL. We were talkin bout the 'drum business' and no other else.

So yea, he helped me a lot. I just couldn't imagine how'll our party go without drums. Imagine a party using a beat box only, gaah so cheapo.

And I saw him again before I went home. I lied to my parents that I went to their house during the night. LOL

Today was a fairy tail. LOL just kidding. But really, it's one of the most unusual days of my enlightened life < 3

I received my first gift today, thank you Grace jungoy! : 3

The only thing that disappoints me is when you made me believe when it was not.

And I feel so low bat tonight. Have been tired of having mixed emotions which turned me out being sleepy at the moment. I just feel so lucky. But I'm actually starving T~T , somebody feed me :*

Thanks to Kiyoshi my problem was solved. Hopefully, we will get the drum set from his place..

This is one of my hell week.

I kinda made friends to other people from the higher year level. Sigh*
I hate, but I'm lovin my work. What the hell. It's quite stressful but exciting. I love how my life's adventure is rolling on.

I just so love my Jesus, GoD..deep down in my calm heart :)