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Monday, February 21, 2011
Saturday, February 19, 2011
HER Story
She always wakes up
with Jesus all the way,
But she can't deny,
She acts impasive whenever she sees you along the way.
Your mystic moves,
eclipse of your effigy she sees,
Makes her unoblivious,
you're the mirror from a far she sees.
The closer you get,
always excites her beating chest.
And secretly lingers to your swag so clean,
Her insides were doing somersaults,
Because you passed with a grin.
She's a secret keeper,
But to her friend she says.
That her fickle mind leads her to thoughts and feelings
That will soon lead her to dismay.
She makes assumptions,
Always thinking some possible situations.
That's what she always gets,
When she starts playing with a flash of her imagination.
Because when she assumes,
Perhaps it takes her away to that sort of gloom.
She's not futuristic,
She just pays attention to logic.
She stopped fantasizing you twenty four seven,
But still you cross her mind----that's heaven.
She stopped expecting,
She stopped assuming,
But these words always confuse her,
Whenever compared to hoping.
At the end of the day,
She has her family where she stays,
She's thankful she saw you,
Though you (she) was being mute,
That's okay.
She prays to Jesus at night
To dismiss her confusions
She has missons
Ceebs intuitions.
You're somehow,quite,
Legit special to her,
She just can't utter
Constantly ponders
You can't seem to be bothered.
Dude why are you being a stunner?
-----------------------------------
So that was her story. WAS, WAS, WAS.
I like digital techniques so much, LOL. Boolean algebra ftw hehe. But I need to work on my codes in JAVA, I suuuuuck, sankyoo to my brothar mikoo he teaches me coz I iz noob hahas. >:] I love life XD, walk with Jesus, with faith ^_^. Kbyes, needa study XD.
with Jesus all the way,
But she can't deny,
She acts impasive whenever she sees you along the way.
Your mystic moves,
eclipse of your effigy she sees,
Makes her unoblivious,
you're the mirror from a far she sees.
The closer you get,
always excites her beating chest.
And secretly lingers to your swag so clean,
Her insides were doing somersaults,
Because you passed with a grin.
She's a secret keeper,
But to her friend she says.
That her fickle mind leads her to thoughts and feelings
That will soon lead her to dismay.
She makes assumptions,
Always thinking some possible situations.
That's what she always gets,
When she starts playing with a flash of her imagination.
Because when she assumes,
Perhaps it takes her away to that sort of gloom.
She's not futuristic,
She just pays attention to logic.
She stopped fantasizing you twenty four seven,
But still you cross her mind----that's heaven.
She stopped expecting,
She stopped assuming,
But these words always confuse her,
Whenever compared to hoping.
At the end of the day,
She has her family where she stays,
She's thankful she saw you,
Though you (she) was being mute,
That's okay.
She prays to Jesus at night
To dismiss her confusions
She has missons
Ceebs intuitions.
You're somehow,quite,
Legit special to her,
She just can't utter
Constantly ponders
You can't seem to be bothered.
Dude why are you being a stunner?
-----------------------------------
So that was her story. WAS, WAS, WAS.
I like digital techniques so much, LOL. Boolean algebra ftw hehe. But I need to work on my codes in JAVA, I suuuuuck, sankyoo to my brothar mikoo he teaches me coz I iz noob hahas. >:] I love life XD, walk with Jesus, with faith ^_^. Kbyes, needa study XD.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Zoooooomgeeeez. Sorry if vernacular XD
I got my stipend today HORRAY! lols, money money monai. XD. Well yeah, Estephanie was with me, me iz so inut you know. I only treated her the red chippy & pineapple juice, yay! So, we stayed outside the ROTC office. Since I already had the capability to buy anything, I was.....me being so maarte (excuse me for being like that, it sounds annoying, but yeah.) thought of buying a new face powder since I ran out of supply HAHA XD` (it's no ordinary powder XD that's why I was craving for some XD, it makes my skin soft & it lasts all day long XD).I also payed for her fair. Then we jumped off the jeepney & went inside the mall. I really wanted to buy immediately but Steph was like into clothes, she was like wait! look at this, it's nice! I wanna try it on. Oh hey, we should buy same clothes,--blah blah. My insides were like yeah, those're cute but I'm so inut you know, I need to buy that face powder NOW~LOL. So we went to the blouses, then the sandals, & doll shoes, to different clothes then finally after talking to myself while I was with her---to the "face powder", LOLs, this powder costs much, I thought less than a hundred fifty but it costs higher. I was like Kays, I dun want my `momma say blah-blahs again, that's why ---no choice, I needa buy my own since I'm here & I have monaiii ahready ~ so yeahrss..
Finally a new face powder LOL YAY!!! (murag mao rajuy kalipay, but yeah, simple things make my day.) Anyway, Steph dragged me again to the dresses and polo shirts. `twas about 5 pm, I wanted to go home so bad, but before that I told her----Uh, steph, adto ta comfort room, kadali lng XD [I was really really excited to put it on, HAHAHA---eiiww, but really IDK I was excited, satisfies me a lot , not just a lot but a WHOLE LOT.]. So anyway, I was bringing along my sling bag with me, & my hands were like multitasking --occupied by stuffs, so I put everything down soooooo excited to put on that powder. HAHAHA, seriously sounds stupid, forgive me XD.
So I was about to go home. I was saying -- >Steph, sa tambo man ka no? (while searching for my wallet)
Steph: oh, dayun bisan unsa raman akong sakyan.
Me: cge sabay ta.. Hala Steph, asa akong pitakaaaa? HALA!
Steph: Hoi Stef!! tanga-a nimo oiii.
Me: Kadali (searching searching)
Both: hoooooooooooiiiii asa namaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnn
Me: Nah, sa C.R.!!!!!! after ko namulbos diba? XDDDDDDD :)))))))))))))
Steph: Ha? wala ko kabantai kay katong mga babaye akong gi tan-aw
Steph: Naa nai sakyanan ohhh.
Me: Naaaah, mubalik ko dadto
Steph: Na akong bag, mag bilin bilin pa.
Ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnn XDDDDD
Guard: Ops! d pwede mag bag
Steph: Importante lng guard
I was inside the mall nah
Me: Steph, asa man ta ageeee? *lubdub*lubdub*
Steph: ah,, dire dire (kulbaaan kaayo xa ug tone XD)
Me: Huh? asa man? Escalator daliiiii
Steph: Nah dari ra sa elevator, 3rd floor bya too.
And nag dali dali jud mig pindot sa elevator, mygaaasss akong stipend, akong kwarta, ang picture ni P'shone ug ni 5 years WUAHAHAHA. omgosh naai koi ma blog HAHAHA. Pero mas nakulbaan jod akong kuyog , ako kay cgeg Oh Lord Jesus T_T.
3rd floor nah.
I was running with all my effort padulong sa CR, feeling like an action star, & parang mahangin sa loob becoz kana bitawng imung hair kay against sa wind & direction nga imung g daganan, so murag ga lupad lupad ang hair murag naa sa tubang sa electric fan XD. Akong nabyaan c Steph HAHA. dali ragud kaayo ko naka adto sa CR.
There were 2 janitors. the other one was a janitress & the other was a janitor. XD
I was catching my breath sabay sabi ng "Ate, naai nabilin pitaka diri :( "
I was like hopeful actually when she said "Unsai color?"
I tried to prove that that was mine, "Color black te... : | "
Murag wala sila na convinced.
I repeated "Color black to te, tapossss, dghan kwarta." (serious face)
HAHAHA, wla jod ko sakong self ato ug ingon ug daghan kwarta, not bragging, but I was telling the truth man sad. HAHA. wa ko kabantay,xempre bag-o lang ko nag kuha sa stipend noh, so dghan jod HAHA. anyway...
Steph interrupted the convo becoz she told me after that I was being hambojera for telling nah daghan og kwarta sa sulod & the janitors laughed & told us "Wala sa namu gihatag sa costumer's service kay basin mu balik ang tag-iya"
HAHA, natural -pwede nato makapalit ug usa ka sakong bugas ug pangtubil Iligan to Cagayan oi, overs. Wala najod akong 5-6 nga negosyo ani run.aw. joke.
I was really really really thankful & hugged ate at the cubicle HAHA. ang pitaka ilang gi butang sa bowl? XD tapos ilang gi tan aw ang mga pictures ang naa pajod sa pinakafront nga pic kay picture ni 5 years nga akong gi print screen ug gi print gahapon WAAAAAAAA. smna oii, sikatang 5 years oi, oi 5 years ma basa unta ni nimo haha, XDDD anyway. Kulang nalang mag group hug mi tanan. Sayang kaha ning mga tuskig nga akong gi tigum tigum HAHA. saon nlng ang pang chix ani, peruuu atik wruuuh :))))
What an experience, XD kays. sankyooo for reading HAHA.
I got my stipend today HORRAY! lols, money money monai. XD. Well yeah, Estephanie was with me, me iz so inut you know. I only treated her the red chippy & pineapple juice, yay! So, we stayed outside the ROTC office. Since I already had the capability to buy anything, I was.....me being so maarte (excuse me for being like that, it sounds annoying, but yeah.) thought of buying a new face powder since I ran out of supply HAHA XD` (it's no ordinary powder XD that's why I was craving for some XD, it makes my skin soft & it lasts all day long XD).I also payed for her fair. Then we jumped off the jeepney & went inside the mall. I really wanted to buy immediately but Steph was like into clothes, she was like wait! look at this, it's nice! I wanna try it on. Oh hey, we should buy same clothes,--blah blah. My insides were like yeah, those're cute but I'm so inut you know, I need to buy that face powder NOW~LOL. So we went to the blouses, then the sandals, & doll shoes, to different clothes then finally after talking to myself while I was with her---to the "face powder", LOLs, this powder costs much, I thought less than a hundred fifty but it costs higher. I was like Kays, I dun want my `momma say blah-blahs again, that's why ---no choice, I needa buy my own since I'm here & I have monaiii ahready ~ so yeahrss..
Finally a new face powder LOL YAY!!! (murag mao rajuy kalipay, but yeah, simple things make my day.) Anyway, Steph dragged me again to the dresses and polo shirts. `twas about 5 pm, I wanted to go home so bad, but before that I told her----Uh, steph, adto ta comfort room, kadali lng XD [I was really really excited to put it on, HAHAHA---eiiww, but really IDK I was excited, satisfies me a lot , not just a lot but a WHOLE LOT.]. So anyway, I was bringing along my sling bag with me, & my hands were like multitasking --occupied by stuffs, so I put everything down soooooo excited to put on that powder. HAHAHA, seriously sounds stupid, forgive me XD.
So I was about to go home. I was saying -- >Steph, sa tambo man ka no? (while searching for my wallet)
Steph: oh, dayun bisan unsa raman akong sakyan.
Me: cge sabay ta.. Hala Steph, asa akong pitakaaaa? HALA!
Steph: Hoi Stef!! tanga-a nimo oiii.
Me: Kadali (searching searching)
Both: hoooooooooooiiiii asa namaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnn
Me: Nah, sa C.R.!!!!!! after ko namulbos diba? XDDDDDDD :)))))))))))))
Steph: Ha? wala ko kabantai kay katong mga babaye akong gi tan-aw
Steph: Naa nai sakyanan ohhh.
Me: Naaaah, mubalik ko dadto
Steph: Na akong bag, mag bilin bilin pa.
Ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnn XDDDDD
Guard: Ops! d pwede mag bag
Steph: Importante lng guard
I was inside the mall nah
Me: Steph, asa man ta ageeee? *lubdub*lubdub*
Steph: ah,, dire dire (kulbaaan kaayo xa ug tone XD)
Me: Huh? asa man? Escalator daliiiii
Steph: Nah dari ra sa elevator, 3rd floor bya too.
And nag dali dali jud mig pindot sa elevator, mygaaasss akong stipend, akong kwarta, ang picture ni P'shone ug ni 5 years WUAHAHAHA. omgosh naai koi ma blog HAHAHA. Pero mas nakulbaan jod akong kuyog , ako kay cgeg Oh Lord Jesus T_T.
3rd floor nah.
I was running with all my effort padulong sa CR, feeling like an action star, & parang mahangin sa loob becoz kana bitawng imung hair kay against sa wind & direction nga imung g daganan, so murag ga lupad lupad ang hair murag naa sa tubang sa electric fan XD. Akong nabyaan c Steph HAHA. dali ragud kaayo ko naka adto sa CR.
There were 2 janitors. the other one was a janitress & the other was a janitor. XD
I was catching my breath sabay sabi ng "Ate, naai nabilin pitaka diri :( "
I was like hopeful actually when she said "Unsai color?"
I tried to prove that that was mine, "Color black te... : | "
Murag wala sila na convinced.
I repeated "Color black to te, tapossss, dghan kwarta." (serious face)
HAHAHA, wla jod ko sakong self ato ug ingon ug daghan kwarta, not bragging, but I was telling the truth man sad. HAHA. wa ko kabantay,xempre bag-o lang ko nag kuha sa stipend noh, so dghan jod HAHA. anyway...
Steph interrupted the convo becoz she told me after that I was being hambojera for telling nah daghan og kwarta sa sulod & the janitors laughed & told us "Wala sa namu gihatag sa costumer's service kay basin mu balik ang tag-iya"
HAHA, natural -pwede nato makapalit ug usa ka sakong bugas ug pangtubil Iligan to Cagayan oi, overs. Wala najod akong 5-6 nga negosyo ani run.aw. joke.
I was really really really thankful & hugged ate at the cubicle HAHA. ang pitaka ilang gi butang sa bowl? XD tapos ilang gi tan aw ang mga pictures ang naa pajod sa pinakafront nga pic kay picture ni 5 years nga akong gi print screen ug gi print gahapon WAAAAAAAA. smna oii, sikatang 5 years oi, oi 5 years ma basa unta ni nimo haha, XDDD anyway. Kulang nalang mag group hug mi tanan. Sayang kaha ning mga tuskig nga akong gi tigum tigum HAHA. saon nlng ang pang chix ani, peruuu atik wruuuh :))))
What an experience, XD kays. sankyooo for reading HAHA.
Monday, February 14, 2011
LoL rereading my last post, I was so paranoid. I'm back to normal today yay!
kays. Back to work, I'm currently working on my english term paper. S'all about cell phones XD. Quite crucial topic since there're no books from the institute's library about cellphones, seriously...we already went to COE,CSM,main library,CED. & can't go inside IDS. So yeah, my group mates are like...ionno, the other one is quite annoying always blabbering despicable stuffs can't even paraphrase so we need not to put direct quote to every sentence, pft. So I carry 88% of the burden. At least Janelle helps me a lot in rewriting, the other one is... nvm. kays.
goal 1.0 & ave above 1.75 please T_T but I know for the fact I did my lamest performance during the prelims in English. You can put the blame on me.
I want to fly to Japan hopefully, fingers crossed* `gon make some robots after this power supply stuffs, programming & digital stuffs. HAHA. Enough bout being futuristic, back to reality, THE PRESENT is a present from GOD. :D
kays. Back to work, I'm currently working on my english term paper. S'all about cell phones XD. Quite crucial topic since there're no books from the institute's library about cellphones, seriously...we already went to COE,CSM,main library,CED. & can't go inside IDS. So yeah, my group mates are like...ionno, the other one is quite annoying always blabbering despicable stuffs can't even paraphrase so we need not to put direct quote to every sentence, pft. So I carry 88% of the burden. At least Janelle helps me a lot in rewriting, the other one is... nvm. kays.
goal 1.0 & ave above 1.75 please T_T but I know for the fact I did my lamest performance during the prelims in English. You can put the blame on me.
I want to fly to Japan hopefully, fingers crossed* `gon make some robots after this power supply stuffs, programming & digital stuffs. HAHA. Enough bout being futuristic, back to reality, THE PRESENT is a present from GOD. :D
So I feel conditioned right now.
Forgive me, I'm sure there're lots of typos & wrong grammar, almost 1 am. I'm tired. Happy valentines! :*
Here goes the story of the sophomore turned junior guy & I while I was in high school.
Way back almost two years ago. You know I have a small crush to this guy. When you're single, of course you're free to have as many crushes as you want. But that was just a small, super minute itchy quite 3 percent-ish crush, I was stung. We got even closer during summer since I kind of taught `em cwalk & yeah. We got closer & closer & closer, I treated `em more like a brother, no more special feelings.
Summer 2009. I was then into vblogging & cwalking. I influenced him, I taught him how to, he did what I said & he even made a dedication vidy to me. Well, that was quite sweet to think, but during those times I took it for granted without knowing something was behind it.
We almost got same hobbies--& he's also a blogger & loves making foreign friends. He's got lots of pretty foreign girl friends & he's also fun of collecting & making fan signs. I think he asked me & I asked for him to make me one too `twas a deal. Of course, no doubt I'm sort of vain, I immediately wrote his name on a white paper & took myself a pic with that paper. The next day, on his birthday, I gave it as a present I reckon. He was like wow & I was like :). Really, to tell you honestly, I did it coz I liked doing it, not because I like him, because I know there was something in exchange. To spoil the story, I didn't receive any exchange fan sign. But `twas kays.
New school year opens. In the middle of the school year:
Sad news from him I heard. His father died :c. Think I was the most affected one during that time. So I gave my condolences to him & went to the wake of course, with friends. We had a small talk. I know he can bare & handle it. The burial was comin up. It was about mid June or July I forgot. Being a senior everyone was busy about the review for entrance exams but I really found time to go to the burial, my two besties were with me. I saw him in the Cathedral, I was worried & about to say my condolences again...They were taking last pictures with the coffin with his father's picture, he was wearing shades but when he saw me (us), he was quite surprised & ashamed that we were there but kind of happy he still managed to smile at me (us). We were on our way to the final place-- of course we were an outcast to his whole clan so we rode a jeepney & we were first to arrive to the cemetery. He accepted the reality I saw him.
I now conclude, maybe , from that day onwards... He took my efforts by/to supporting him the wrong way. He appreciated my effort by making him that fansign, kapoi bya buhat ato nga fansign ai, kapoi pangita og sakto nga angle. Tapos kalas bya mig plete kaayo, nag apas apas mi nila padung menteryo. Wala pod xay mga cm8s nga ning adto kami ra 3, tapos ako man to ang namugos nga mu adto jod. so mao guro to. aw.
Palakasan 2010
We still cwalked, I taught him. He was noob-ish that time, he really wanted to learn. So I taught him. That night, there was a cultural night. We went to the gym. We were quite meters away from our friends we were like cuddling each other but really, I swear there was nothing I felt towards him. & I told him
ui, naa koi ingun
ha? unsa?
ai ayaw nalang
naaaaaah unsa ba
pero ayaw saba ha
lage lage
naa bya koi crush doh, batch ninyo
ha? kinsa?
naaaaah,ayaw saba ha
oh lage
c ------
ahhhh,dghan man jud na crush ana niya sa una pa.
So `twas about 6:30-ish.
I was like
Uy gutum, di pamu mangaon? Papalit ko nimo be!
Huh? walay papalit papalit! dapat kuyog!
in the end kay kami rmn diay duha mamalit, nagpapalit ang uban lang heya!
We were walking nah, it was quite dark najod padulong CBAA canteen. I can feel his shoulders bumping to mine while walking, but `twas kays. Brother you know, kid pa xa so okay ra, taller nga lang. K.
So we arrived to the place, in the canteen. Dghan na kayo kog bitbit nga chips mga junk food nga ginapa palit sa mga nanugo, lang heya aw. atik wruh.
Suddenly he pulled me. Iyang gi bira akong elbows,
"Dali ragud Shan".
in front of his girl friends he asked : "Bagay me?"
friends niya: "Unsamana? bag-o napod?"
IMy insides was like: "huh? nganu mna xa? laina oi. yuck ka luod nah. smni oi."
So I waited him to finish buying food. I walked fast to the gym and sat on the bench, while they sat on the higher level. He offered be some food, I said NO. I was really in the middle of what the hell, super frightened, dude Im so innocent :(
I was thinking & over thinkng & over thinking. I was like eiw, yuck, huh, wth, unsa nalang ang iingon sa uban? nah laina oi, makabalo akong manghod, akong best friends ang mga teachers nooo WTH.
Dli na dayon mi mgpinansinay after that night, after that day. The next day, super awkward because he knew I wasn't feeling the same way. But there was an event the following day, Science month...DUDE he transformed!!! grabe ka azn, my type. Too late. kays. Everyone was saying gwapoha niya pag mu sayaw xa oiii, pag mu sayaw rapod , astiga oii.---basta gwapo jod xa mu sayaw. That day I was thinking why not? coconuT!
hmm, but I'm tight lipped. I never confessed. I hid it & hid & hid, I graduated. I forgot about `em actually. Moved on...
June 2010
1st pagkakita namo was like hiiiiiii shaaaaaaaaan 3x
& now hes got a gf, uh, read my other blog below nalang on how we met each others eyes. :|
samoka oi. K. nasa huli ang pagsisisi. aw. bhala oi. xa ra ba diay? naa pakoi majors atubangon noh. aw. pero. why theseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. tsk. K.
Forgive me, I'm sure there're lots of typos & wrong grammar, almost 1 am. I'm tired. Happy valentines! :*
Here goes the story of the sophomore turned junior guy & I while I was in high school.
Way back almost two years ago. You know I have a small crush to this guy. When you're single, of course you're free to have as many crushes as you want. But that was just a small, super minute itchy quite 3 percent-ish crush, I was stung. We got even closer during summer since I kind of taught `em cwalk & yeah. We got closer & closer & closer, I treated `em more like a brother, no more special feelings.
Summer 2009. I was then into vblogging & cwalking. I influenced him, I taught him how to, he did what I said & he even made a dedication vidy to me. Well, that was quite sweet to think, but during those times I took it for granted without knowing something was behind it.
We almost got same hobbies--& he's also a blogger & loves making foreign friends. He's got lots of pretty foreign girl friends & he's also fun of collecting & making fan signs. I think he asked me & I asked for him to make me one too `twas a deal. Of course, no doubt I'm sort of vain, I immediately wrote his name on a white paper & took myself a pic with that paper. The next day, on his birthday, I gave it as a present I reckon. He was like wow & I was like :). Really, to tell you honestly, I did it coz I liked doing it, not because I like him, because I know there was something in exchange. To spoil the story, I didn't receive any exchange fan sign. But `twas kays.
New school year opens. In the middle of the school year:
Sad news from him I heard. His father died :c. Think I was the most affected one during that time. So I gave my condolences to him & went to the wake of course, with friends. We had a small talk. I know he can bare & handle it. The burial was comin up. It was about mid June or July I forgot. Being a senior everyone was busy about the review for entrance exams but I really found time to go to the burial, my two besties were with me. I saw him in the Cathedral, I was worried & about to say my condolences again...They were taking last pictures with the coffin with his father's picture, he was wearing shades but when he saw me (us), he was quite surprised & ashamed that we were there but kind of happy he still managed to smile at me (us). We were on our way to the final place-- of course we were an outcast to his whole clan so we rode a jeepney & we were first to arrive to the cemetery. He accepted the reality I saw him.
I now conclude, maybe , from that day onwards... He took my efforts by/to supporting him the wrong way. He appreciated my effort by making him that fansign, kapoi bya buhat ato nga fansign ai, kapoi pangita og sakto nga angle. Tapos kalas bya mig plete kaayo, nag apas apas mi nila padung menteryo. Wala pod xay mga cm8s nga ning adto kami ra 3, tapos ako man to ang namugos nga mu adto jod. so mao guro to. aw.
Palakasan 2010
We still cwalked, I taught him. He was noob-ish that time, he really wanted to learn. So I taught him. That night, there was a cultural night. We went to the gym. We were quite meters away from our friends we were like cuddling each other but really, I swear there was nothing I felt towards him. & I told him
ui, naa koi ingun
ha? unsa?
ai ayaw nalang
naaaaaah unsa ba
pero ayaw saba ha
lage lage
naa bya koi crush doh, batch ninyo
ha? kinsa?
naaaaah,ayaw saba ha
oh lage
c ------
ahhhh,dghan man jud na crush ana niya sa una pa.
So `twas about 6:30-ish.
I was like
Uy gutum, di pamu mangaon? Papalit ko nimo be!
Huh? walay papalit papalit! dapat kuyog!
in the end kay kami rmn diay duha mamalit, nagpapalit ang uban lang heya!
We were walking nah, it was quite dark najod padulong CBAA canteen. I can feel his shoulders bumping to mine while walking, but `twas kays. Brother you know, kid pa xa so okay ra, taller nga lang. K.
So we arrived to the place, in the canteen. Dghan na kayo kog bitbit nga chips mga junk food nga ginapa palit sa mga nanugo, lang heya aw. atik wruh.
Suddenly he pulled me. Iyang gi bira akong elbows,
"Dali ragud Shan".
in front of his girl friends he asked : "Bagay me?"
friends niya: "Unsamana? bag-o napod?"
IMy insides was like: "huh? nganu mna xa? laina oi. yuck ka luod nah. smni oi."
So I waited him to finish buying food. I walked fast to the gym and sat on the bench, while they sat on the higher level. He offered be some food, I said NO. I was really in the middle of what the hell, super frightened, dude Im so innocent :(
I was thinking & over thinkng & over thinking. I was like eiw, yuck, huh, wth, unsa nalang ang iingon sa uban? nah laina oi, makabalo akong manghod, akong best friends ang mga teachers nooo WTH.
Dli na dayon mi mgpinansinay after that night, after that day. The next day, super awkward because he knew I wasn't feeling the same way. But there was an event the following day, Science month...DUDE he transformed!!! grabe ka azn, my type. Too late. kays. Everyone was saying gwapoha niya pag mu sayaw xa oiii, pag mu sayaw rapod , astiga oii.---basta gwapo jod xa mu sayaw. That day I was thinking why not? coconuT!
hmm, but I'm tight lipped. I never confessed. I hid it & hid & hid, I graduated. I forgot about `em actually. Moved on...
June 2010
1st pagkakita namo was like hiiiiiii shaaaaaaaaan 3x
& now hes got a gf, uh, read my other blog below nalang on how we met each others eyes. :|
samoka oi. K. nasa huli ang pagsisisi. aw. bhala oi. xa ra ba diay? naa pakoi majors atubangon noh. aw. pero. why theseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. tsk. K.
Can singles be happy on valentines day?
Well of course, that's a straight yes. They can, we can be happy.But in the end it's up for that individual to pick up his choice. Not my fault. & Of course we have friends that are also like us (single). We can celebrate vday together & enjoy the day together. But what's the big deal about valentines day? About valentines day and being single? I don't really get the point.
Actually, it's a biggy to some because they know how to envy others, envy how the so called lovers do the imba moves. But of course, this is one of the days when some of these (single) people feel & receive the biggest slap on their face when they used to spend public display of affection moments with their mirror, their exes. Well not really PDA but more like that. My vision about this day isn't that broad yet. So, therefore I conclude that singles can be happy during valentines day. XD
Well of course, that's a straight yes. They can, we can be happy.But in the end it's up for that individual to pick up his choice. Not my fault. & Of course we have friends that are also like us (single). We can celebrate vday together & enjoy the day together. But what's the big deal about valentines day? About valentines day and being single? I don't really get the point.
Actually, it's a biggy to some because they know how to envy others, envy how the so called lovers do the imba moves. But of course, this is one of the days when some of these (single) people feel & receive the biggest slap on their face when they used to spend public display of affection moments with their mirror, their exes. Well not really PDA but more like that. My vision about this day isn't that broad yet. So, therefore I conclude that singles can be happy during valentines day. XD
Sunday, February 13, 2011
I don't think this Prom '10 blog is healthy for me. So whose idea is this? :/
Prom? uh, forget it. Maybe you enjoyed it , but I? I was just satisfied. Not happy, not sad--just neutral. IDK. So that wasn't my day,my night.
That so called "special" guy I could've danced with was from a sophomore class. LAME.
& now he has a girlfrand. Seeing those moves he used to do the same to me--is this jealousy? Think it's bad? Am I a sinner for being jealous? Huh? Like I moved on for quite some time, just like what I did to 5 years.
I know he liked me but I was the most coward girl ever when he told me that. What the heck, so ignorant of me, I was not exposed to such before, not even during my elementary years. He was just like a brother to me but everything changed when he told me that phrase. I was like O_O ^_^ :( :/ blank. I started avoiding him after that night. Those days I put a huge box of a freezing cold ice between us, `twas all my fault. A week after, I realized, why not?. But `twas too late, I can't even speak. Always thinking `bout the people's reactions & what if's & the haters & me being a pedo :(. But he's taller. Too late. On his birthday, I saw him with another girl. K. Enough :/
Like yesterday--I saw him glanced at me during the acoustic jam event. We kind of met each others eyes but `twas quite dark & he was meters away so I was like the great pretender for not even saying hiii from a far. & I saw him with his girl that I don't even like. A juice of a hot chilly pepper was poured into my eyes from my imagination. Don't get me wrong, before I knew they're together , originally I don't like HER, for some reasons--her voice, the way she speaks & her aura is...but she's pretty & talented I cannot deny. :D
There's nothing I can do but to pretend pretend & forget but still reminisce LOL. samoka nako oiii. I can taste my bitterness. Past isn't past.
I have a new crush for three months now & I'm taking this seriously but not too serious that we should pursue a relationship HAHA. Serious that I make sure he helps me enchant on what to do, I don't really want him to know coz I just want it to be that way.
Pasulyap sulyap ka kumari,
patingin tingin kumpari
Di maintindihan
Ang ibig mong sabihin
---reminds me of Sir Plaza's song XD
LOL dw bout mees I can handle it. I got academic damn problems which I need to pay more attention, I need to go out from this city after I'm done with this, THIS & these.
sorry wrong grammar, I know I should work on it :
Prom? uh, forget it. Maybe you enjoyed it , but I? I was just satisfied. Not happy, not sad--just neutral. IDK. So that wasn't my day,my night.
That so called "special" guy I could've danced with was from a sophomore class. LAME.
& now he has a girlfrand. Seeing those moves he used to do the same to me--is this jealousy? Think it's bad? Am I a sinner for being jealous? Huh? Like I moved on for quite some time, just like what I did to 5 years.
I know he liked me but I was the most coward girl ever when he told me that. What the heck, so ignorant of me, I was not exposed to such before, not even during my elementary years. He was just like a brother to me but everything changed when he told me that phrase. I was like O_O ^_^ :( :/ blank. I started avoiding him after that night. Those days I put a huge box of a freezing cold ice between us, `twas all my fault. A week after, I realized, why not?. But `twas too late, I can't even speak. Always thinking `bout the people's reactions & what if's & the haters & me being a pedo :(. But he's taller. Too late. On his birthday, I saw him with another girl. K. Enough :/
Like yesterday--I saw him glanced at me during the acoustic jam event. We kind of met each others eyes but `twas quite dark & he was meters away so I was like the great pretender for not even saying hiii from a far. & I saw him with his girl that I don't even like. A juice of a hot chilly pepper was poured into my eyes from my imagination. Don't get me wrong, before I knew they're together , originally I don't like HER, for some reasons--her voice, the way she speaks & her aura is...but she's pretty & talented I cannot deny. :D
There's nothing I can do but to pretend pretend & forget but still reminisce LOL. samoka nako oiii. I can taste my bitterness. Past isn't past.
I have a new crush for three months now & I'm taking this seriously but not too serious that we should pursue a relationship HAHA. Serious that I make sure he helps me enchant on what to do, I don't really want him to know coz I just want it to be that way.
Pasulyap sulyap ka kumari,
patingin tingin kumpari
Di maintindihan
Ang ibig mong sabihin
---reminds me of Sir Plaza's song XD
LOL dw bout mees I can handle it. I got academic damn problems which I need to pay more attention, I need to go out from this city after I'm done with this, THIS & these.
sorry wrong grammar, I know I should work on it :
Friday, February 11, 2011
So this season gives a big big big slap on the face to lovers turned enemers lol. When these bitter people ponder their moments like too much togetherness during the past make them reminisce the legit happiness. & singles need not to worry about being alone, be with your friends who are also single--don't worry, you guys will be together, together alone. >:]
No matter how you hurt me, used me, played me,ditched me. I still give a damn attention to you--even you don't deserve it. This is not a form of plasticity but it's a form of respect. I'm not inhuman to not to talk to you forever. You helped me at times when I was in my biggest trouble. But still you're a liar to me & to my friends (fans & supporters jks.)
This midterm experience is one great example -- of that feeling of how someone gives me that middle finger seriously immorally. Shame on me, I can't answer well to questions from my mates, from my parents & friends. I'm so slow by now. Something has gotten into me.
I know I know, this academic field I am currently pissed about. I don't know who to blame, what to blame and why blame when you can't put the blame on me --- I can bare it sometimes but my insides shed a tear to fight.
I find myself annoying.Just that...I have an active mind but I have a lazy body. Yes, I lost my goal. My insides're silently turning to grey every time I attain those red marks especially from my majors. I know I could've done better, still I know, I know...my fault, fault.
Subjects are getting lead-footed damn loaded. Circuit problems all the way, capacitors, inductors, resistors & all these tiny components are so cute I hope my grade are not as cute as these components. I thought JAVA only dealt with those codes like System.out.println daaaaaaaaaamn I just knew there're pseudo codes, algorithms & there're alot of things need to be memorized & these deals with deep analyzation,focus & concentration.Memorization is my weakness. Concepts I needa understand "MORE BETTER".
I just lack practice. IKR.
I know I know, this academic field I am currently pissed about. I don't know who to blame, what to blame and why blame when you can't put the blame on me --- I can bare it sometimes but my insides shed a tear to fight.
I find myself annoying.Just that...I have an active mind but I have a lazy body. Yes, I lost my goal. My insides're silently turning to grey every time I attain those red marks especially from my majors. I know I could've done better, still I know, I know...my fault, fault.
Subjects are getting lead-footed damn loaded. Circuit problems all the way, capacitors, inductors, resistors & all these tiny components are so cute I hope my grade are not as cute as these components. I thought JAVA only dealt with those codes like System.out.println daaaaaaaaaamn I just knew there're pseudo codes, algorithms & there're alot of things need to be memorized & these deals with deep analyzation,focus & concentration.Memorization is my weakness. Concepts I needa understand "MORE BETTER".
I just lack practice. IKR.
Monday, February 7, 2011
I think I'm the manhid girl. Uhh, everyone was blabbering about sir Joel M. & I stayed silent. I was like, what's the point...I chose this, there were moments he asked us if we understand the discussion... I didn't ask. How could I ask, I was still internalizing + there're lots of destruction & he's like okay---honestly speaking, though he knows nobody understands, he still goes on & don't care like what the ef-idgaf to students who won't listen to me,they'll be the one's who'll suffer not me. So that idea kinda annoys me. But for reals, as a student I'm not doing my part much--hoooooooooooooooooooonestly...I only study days before the exams, of course if he discussed it thoroughly I won't hear this blabber fever from my mates. I was like *sigh* , they all said it. & too late. I failed my part but tohoootally he failed his part more , unable to meet the student's standards. But there's nothing I can't do yet, I'm still a student, so like he was saying wala nai flat one this sem ha & I was like aguiii nagpadungog dungog jud xa, aku rba tung ana ang grado sa 1st sem. I still want to be in the DL. ohhhh please :( . wala gani koi honor honor sa high school, d jud ku musugot pag wala napod sa college, future na ni teh.aw.K.So I'm challenged much for the finals, now I have resources, I need & I will really solve & study in advance. I can't stand graduating this so called engineering type of major without leaning this load analysis diode etc. WTH. no one needs to go to hell :) I need not to be affected. I have my own path. Thank You So Much Jesus for giving me such positive outlook in life. Just Jesus.
It already happened twice in my dreams, two different pianos appeared.
About 3pm Sunday---The first was like.. the piano was played by the Djs because they were like telling the listeners that there're songs that have double meaning (---iI forgot the term uuhh...like Lady Gaga's & others) `twas really weird. But it was a Sunday "episode" & I was overhearing them from a church nearby. & there was another guy (a priest) ---was having a sermon, just that the speakers/amplifiers were loud enough so I heard it from my grandma's house. & in front of the house was a seashore & we were planning to go to another island so we can avoid the bad songs played by the piano O_o. Idk, `twas really scary.
About 3am Monday---So there was a party in our house. My block mates were there, everyone was having fun. I was hype, I was called by Anghel & we were like super friends that moment but I let him wait for a little while `coz I was texting & wth Zalsos was leaning on my shoulders while Anghel was watching & waiting. So I went near him. & his arms were put on my shoulders (partly a hug) & he showed me something & again `twas a brown painted piano made of idk what kind of wood. So he was about to play it for me but my alarm clock annoyingly distracted me from sleep.
So curious was I, I looked over the web... random interpretations struck me & excite me..
For a young woman to dream that she is executing difficult, but entrancing music, she will succeed in winning an indifferent friend to be a most devoted and loyal lover.--(why indifferent? uuhh.)
To dream that you hear the sound of a piano, suggests harmony in your life. You are pleased with the way your life is going. --Really I was pleased for a while...
About 3pm Sunday---The first was like.. the piano was played by the Djs because they were like telling the listeners that there're songs that have double meaning (---iI forgot the term uuhh...like Lady Gaga's & others) `twas really weird. But it was a Sunday "episode" & I was overhearing them from a church nearby. & there was another guy (a priest) ---was having a sermon, just that the speakers/amplifiers were loud enough so I heard it from my grandma's house. & in front of the house was a seashore & we were planning to go to another island so we can avoid the bad songs played by the piano O_o. Idk, `twas really scary.
About 3am Monday---So there was a party in our house. My block mates were there, everyone was having fun. I was hype, I was called by Anghel & we were like super friends that moment but I let him wait for a little while `coz I was texting & wth Zalsos was leaning on my shoulders while Anghel was watching & waiting. So I went near him. & his arms were put on my shoulders (partly a hug) & he showed me something & again `twas a brown painted piano made of idk what kind of wood. So he was about to play it for me but my alarm clock annoyingly distracted me from sleep.
So curious was I, I looked over the web... random interpretations struck me & excite me..
For a young woman to dream that she is executing difficult, but entrancing music, she will succeed in winning an indifferent friend to be a most devoted and loyal lover.--(why indifferent? uuhh.)
To dream that you hear the sound of a piano, suggests harmony in your life. You are pleased with the way your life is going. --Really I was pleased for a while...
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