I was indeed rude to someone tonight.

I was like about to go home past six in the evening. It was raining quite hard. I got to walk on the wet pathway carrying my pink umbrella with me. A guy in a bright yellow shirt was running across me fast to get himself dry under the roof of the clinic.

I passed by him slowly. He was azn. I was thinking that I would let him share my umbrella with him until the pathway near the exit. I was thinking that it would be flirty-ish if I do that but my intention is freakin clean anyway. I just passed by him. I walked away, guilty.

I knew he was waiting for me to offer, but I didn't.

I was over thinking about the situation again. Realizing he could've been my friend. But anyway, I started to feel like a looser.

Outside the school, it was still raining so hard. I waited for a jeepney nearby the street. I saw girl crossing the street, she's getting wet and was also waiting for a ride. She was carrying a laptop. I sighed.

"Hey, wanna share?"
"If it's okay"

I felt happy enough to relieve my disappointment earlier. :)

I made her ride first so she wont be that much wet. :)

Dark night casted as the snakes hiss on the grasslands.

Hoping to be rescued up on an abandoned old tree.

My curious thoughts turned crappy to worse as I heard a voice somewhere I can not locate.

A bright search light glistened from a far.

As I shouted for help...Nobody answered.

But a scream of a guy's deep voice disrupted my state of being on a tree.

Realizing that de ja vu is happening to me.

The tree started to shake. Eartquake!

My white dress turned bloody to red to black.

A morning shout out from my alarm bugged me.

I then woke up from that weird unexplainable nightmare on my cluttered silky bed.

After I got myself ready for school, I blow dried my hair to emphasize my layers.

I have been concerned on how I look when strangers see me.

But my grade matters more than my looks.

So I arrived early at school. Waiting for my mates in the lounge.

A guy in white walked buy and winked at my chinky eyes.

I ended up having a poker face but butterflies from my stomach grew.

I just stared at him while a snap interrupted my sight from my mate.

In just a flash, he was then gone.

Lunch time I got a text asking how was my Math quiz,

It was alright, I aced it, I replied.

I was really curious who was it, I called the unregistered number.

It rang thrice, and someone might have picked it up.

And I heard the tune of my favorite song.

Weird....

Hello? Do I know you? - Iasked

A teenage guy's voice was telling me he misses me.

Wha- what do you mean? - I was confused

Then I heard a loud scream over the mobile yelling my name until it echoed in my mind.

The phone hung up.

At two pm, most of my mates were not around in our Bio class.

Our teacher gave us surprise quiz.

Luckily I aced it again.

But,I wonder why.

Situations like this came to be so unexpected.

I hurriedly checked my phone.

It was vibrating and ringing since three hours ago.

I never bothered to check it lately, I was feeling sick and tired though.

53 messages, 18 missed calls

I was beginning to feel strange, panic,cold,nervous, and horrified.

I was alone in the Bio room while reading the text message and glancing at the preserved fetus around the corner.

A guy knocked the door twice.

He was eight meters away from me.

Asking how was my Bio quiz.

It was alright. I aced it..I answered.

I paused, my heart began to pump fast.

I was asked the same question earlier but in a different subject though.

I glanced back at the door, he was gone.

My tears run from my watery eyes.

I ran and carried my feet as fast as I can to get out from the creepy Bio room.

I read a text from my friend...

That my boyfriend died from a plane crash.

I received a text from my doctor...

That I am carrying a child inside my tummy for three months.

I got a text from my mom...

That I need to go home and stop school since my dad's company was already bankrupt.

I drive myself insane.

How could I be sane?

short story-poem.

Past eight tonight, I started solving my maths. I don't know how to prove problems anymore :'[
Luckily someone pressured me to do so.

I so hate procrastinating but I still do it.

Anyway, I'm off to sleep in a bit. No one special is online. He's not my facebook friend either. I don't even know his name yet he knows mine. sigh*

Err, so today was wasted. I woke up at nine. An unusual time for me to wake up. Yes, I did overslept. I was over thinking figuring out the name of that guy whose got that azn smile and chinky eyes who was smiling at me while I was smile at the mirror. Uh, don't get me wrong, I do not like him but I kinda start to like him though. He's cute and retarded. LOL jk, retarded but hot!

Well anyway, there was no water, I got stuck up in my room. I was taught by my sister to teach me the guitar chords of Just the way you are by Bruno Mars. And the crap, I got so rusty in playing that instrument.

Still bored, I was expired with my unli text so I told my sis to reload me at the store. All I did was to send group messages and bugging every single inbox of the people I feel like bugging. Haha.

My eyes are kinda stressed right now. I overslept and there's much radiation from my mobile while texting.

My best friend sent me ten messages of a short story poem. Some parts were inspired by my life love story. And heaps, I sorta remember what he inhumanly did to me. The heck?!

Luckily I recovered from that true to life night mare.

I made my own short story too, but not as much flowery as my best friend's. But yeah.

& LoL, I just can't dismiss this random azn guy from my school off my mind. lol

THE END of the ICCF ^_^

So yesterday was like the end of the ICCF day. I felt so friggin lucky cos I met new people of random personalities I haven't encountered before. I just enjoyed it so much, I only felt 10% exhaustion lol.

So on Tuesday, gunna be back to my normal school days. I'm so excited <3. I hope I can retain my higher gpa T_T. I know I will, and I can because I always have Lord Jesus God in my heart<3 forever.

Yesterday was a driving lesson's day. My Papa taught me how to drive our car since he was quite free and I was so bored. So since yesterday was Eid al-Adha (Arabic: عيد الأضحى‎ 'Īdu l-'Aḍḥā) or "Festival of Sacrifice" the school was less populated. So we went to the grounds since there is much space for him to teach me the basics in driving. I was taught first about when to use the clutch, break and the accelerator. And before I change my gear, I should always step on the clutch before I change my gear or else the car's machine would die. So my first try started like turning on the car and then pushing the clutch and did the first gear and balancing and timing the clutch and accelerator and my first ride started off! And I could just sweat it out! But ... I encountered a problem about crossing over my hands of the steering wheel because I concentrated much more on the clutches, breaks and accelerator and I was so confused about crossing over my hand and multitasking is freakin hard! LOL

Back to school again. It's somewhat dusky to go back to my study habit routine .
The state of my mind is still in a dazy condition because I have been dwelling to some creepy crappy frustrating thoughts that my mind f*cking makes up since the first semester was about to end. I did quite well in the first semester though but I want to push & pressure myself to strive better to achieve the best. I don't know why sometimes, I procrastinate to no end until I fall asleep and then here comes tomorrow
.
I call it a teenage dilemma.

Packy won!

Lucky me! My friend bet for Margy while I bet for Packy for a 20 peso mobile load. Expectedly, Packy won. And Margarito’s right eye was swollen grotesquely. That hurts much more than what I reckon. Well done Manny Packy Wacky! \\\\m////

I lost 170 pesos

I am so irresponsible when it comes to money. I gave a sukli to that lady more than the money she gave to me. Now my mom won't give a tapal to me now.

So why do I disappear when you come near,
It makes me feel so small,
Why do I blow my lines, most every time,
Like I got no chance at all,

-Joe Brooks: Superman Lyrics

You have no idea how stupid I was that I like you for half a decade. It was all my fault.

I'll save my sorrows for tomorrow

Hey now, I won't cry
Baby I will dry my eyes



Mister pouty lips
How about a smile?



I know what you need
Boi I got the therapy


In my bed, you'll forget
Let me clear your mind



When you feel gone
I'll rock your bone


Baby I want you to know
When you want it, you can get it
Anytime that you like



- This is actually a lyrics from the song Lullaby by Joe Moe, I just did some minute changes

Is the fortune teller telling the truth?

All this time, naloko ako ng sarili kong kagaguhan. putekz.

I'm so confounded yet I can not do anything to oppress what I really feel.

I was such a baby back then
I hope I was not
But I was
You told me how you feel
I got pissed
I didn't know what to do
I never replied
I never knew
Then I like you
And I still do
Just like a domino
You like her
And you still do
I can't stop dwelling at you
So you do to her
Hey
I'm sorry
I was just being numb
Please.
Idk what to do seriously
I thought I moved on
Then I was trying to
I end up being cheated
I hope you wont be
I'm so lame
Excuse me
--
Take care
I just need to grow some balls
You need to grow some too
I mean
Yeah
*sigh*

Shape of the Heart

Just like this picture, if you flip one, it simply matches to the other...just the counterpart though. As we go on with what we feel...When you reckon you're not in the right turn, God allows U-turns anyway. Who knows? God knows.

So, my life is somewhat like this...

I'm yet so lucky for what I am having now. I have supportive friends,strict parents, approachable companions and the best God in my heart. Yes, I was over joyed, cheated, disappointed, confused , lunatic , pessimistic towards anything that a teenager would probably feel or do. I have been over thinking situations that keeps me dragging to fulfill my confusing present but I need to fill up my effin past. I hate the fact what my mind makes such random crap about situations that happened & fantasizing thing that I know would never happen unless I grow some balls.