Dear you,
i think about you,not always but often. I know you’re far away from me. You just don’t know the feeling of having much butterflies in my stomach you’re giving, when we seldom(sometimes) talk. We both know what happened years ago, that only less people could remember it, or (maybe) you also forgot about it. But anyhow, i know, we both want a nice future, and we both have big dreams, stable job in the future, make our parents proud more than what we gave them during our high school years. I’m glad that you are there now, in a new environment. It’s okay if you don’t mind me, though we don’t communicate much, i have connections to those people who are close to you that’s why, i know what you’re up to and updates from you. Anyhow, being a secret admirer of you for almost 5 years, is kind of tough. There are lots of temptations. I was pretending I liked that somebody, but for reals, all I want (like) is you. LOLs. Well, i reckon , i can’t see the best thing between you and I yet. But what we have gone through, is frickin priceless than anybody else could have spent together.(well, prolly saying, everything happened through an accident that’s why there’s this cold space between us) The reason that I never confessed that I like you, because I think our friendship (though we frickin seldom make convos) is way better than us as lovers at the moment. God Bless. Take Care. Be my inspiration.
-you’re loyal secret admirer-
Well I moved on to that kind of guy. For reals, I seldom write long about my crushes. LOL. These are actually the people I never got bored writing about. :)
And to the new one :)
Anghel dear,
Hey this is 'Stefy'. I feel so over reacting right now. But to be honest, I was so flattered when you told me you trust me. And you started sharing your secrets to me (Like they say...praises are like perfume, just smell the perfume but never swallow it. But I reckon, I tasted the perfume... Is it that bad?) And you started sharing your deepest secrets to me that maybe only a few of us knew. I was quite insensitive when you shared those to me... thinking that during those times, I was also bringing a heavy hatred feeling to someone (I reckon, it was more than your problem). I still listened to your story. & It's sad...I mean really. You had been so loyal and loving towards her. But everything you told me didn't sink into me yet during that night. For me, we are secret super friends since we unusually talk personally when we're here in school...
Yes, I told you about that 11:11 thingy, we wished together.
Your wish? I wonder... I never asked but I always bother.
We sent each others replies those nights until midnight. Excited mush for your name to appear in my inbox, but weeks later, we stopped sharing thoughts together.
Everything you told me started to sink into my mind slowly. Scrolling and rereading your messages, I noticed you indirectly confessed..
When you told me you're comfortable towards me,
I felt so fly, flattered than anyone could be.
Your swag so clean and rare to find,
24/7 you're now running on my mind.
Worrying if things would go wrong,
You know I'm not that strong,
I really don't know where this lunatic feeling belong.
Maybe this is just an infatuation
Made by my mere imagination...
`Coz I fantasize situations,
Sometimes I don't know where to apply my limitations,
All these confusions,
I cannot understand even simple signs and punctuations.
I don't really know what I am to you,
But for all I know..
You enchant but confuse me,
That's what you always do.
Don't get me wrong,
I'm not hurrying things up,
I just want to get us close enough.
I never intended to put malice,
But because of my fickle mind hindi yun maaalis
Crushes are just crushes. Don't worry, I will never grow some balls to tell you both how much you enchant, confuse and mean to me :)
Inspirations are just inspirations.
To top it all up, it is because of Jesus in me, why I see these beautiful sides of you. :)
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