If it's real love, it can wait. Though he has been telling me that he's not rushing me-- by his actions, he is. So here are the reasons and perspective from my side:

1. I already told him I'm not open for a relationship. Why?
2. Because I enjoy being single and free.
3. I have been through a lot, though I was never really in a REALationship before.
4. His parents want to transfer him to another school next sem, but he wants to stay here.
5. Who knows? During sem break they're gonna talk it over and convince him to really transfer. Besides, his parents are the ones who'll give money for tuition fees and all the financial support.
6. If we will be together now and he will transfer to another school, I don't want to be left behind.
7. If this is REAL love he can wait.
8. My parents don't want me to be in a relationship this early and I do respect their rule.
9. It's okay to be"FRIENDS" for now.
10. Seriously, he is so obssessed and I don't really love him as a lover.
11. My intention was for him to be my friend, I was really kind (i had a secret crush on him before but crush != love)-- he took it the wrong way.
12. I only see him as a brother for now.
13. I'm having a hard time, oh Jesus, I dont love him. I just seem to care!
14. I cant force myself to be with someone who really loves me but I couldnt repay.
15. It takes time. He's in a hurry. He has given me three weeks or two, to decide. But I always tell him not to expect from me, because I am NOT READY for a relationship.
16. In the eyes of the crowd, we're ON. But seriously! NOT!
17. I'm SINGLE and CONTENTED.
18. I can live alone, I don't really need someone right now. I want school works, paper works all about learning something new, doing something really productive, make my parents super proud of me and take one step higher everytime I fall 10 times lower.
19. Because I bloom like a flower. Have you ever wondered that flowers bloom on its own, from the power within? You Can't force to open a bud and make it flower. If you do so, it wil be ruined, a total mess. Whereas, if you wait for a flower to bloom, there you can smell its fragrance and real beauty. Like flower buds, No outsider can open me from within. Allow me to bloom, on my own, by myself.
20. BECAUSE IF ITs REAL, IT CAN WAIT.
IF IT CAN'T WAIT, THEN IT'S NOT LOVE AT ALL.
IT'S MERELY AN ADMIRATION OR OBSSESSION.

I AM ABOUT TO BLOOM LIKE A FLOWER.
WHO KNOWS? I WILL LOVE HIM.
BUT IF NOT, THEN IT'S NOT REAL.









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